Hi Auntie, please keep me anonymous. I just need to vent. Have you ever “broken up” with someone you were never with? I don’t understand why I feel so hurt. A part of me knows he isn’t good for me. The back story is this, I’m 27 and he is 28/29. I’m a born again Christian and he says he is Christian but our values about pre-marital sex differ as I choose to save myself for marriage while he won’t. He is a lawyer and I am a training attorney and we went to the same high school years back but lost contact afterwards until now. He always checked on my Facebook stories and commented on how pretty I am. Until we exchanged contacts, he would always call me sweet names and was so consistent about checking in and communicating. He suggested that we meet up for lunch but before we did, I asked if he has a girlfriend and he admitted to having one, I got turned off and deleted his contacts and stopped taking his calls.
Fast forward to two months later, he started commenting on my Facebook stories again and we started talking again, and I sent him my number and said I wouldn’t block or delete him again. We started talking more often and he would say sweet things and I slowly started liking him more (maybe falling for him). He would say how serious he is about me and how he wants to marry me. Till today, we still haven’t met up and he did not suggest that we do.
About two days ago, he initiated ‘phone sex’ and I started by refusing but ended falling for it and I felt guilty in my spirit as I am celibate and want to stay this way until marriage. This morning I told him how I feel about what happened and he ignored my text, I cried about it and deleted his number and when he noticed this, he blocked me on Facebook.
Why am I feeling heartbroken over this “situationship” that never was? I feel like I care more than I should and now I’m thinking did he even care at all? I just needed to vent.